Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Washington Shipyard Shooter


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 While no specific reason has been given as to what spurred him to shoot dead 12 people at Washington's Navy Yard, Aaron Alexis' overall mindset came into sharper focus Tuesday -- including a history of psychological issues.
That past includes a Newport, Rhode Island, incident on August 7, more than five weeks before Alexis was gunned down after single-handedly pulling off America's latest mass shooting.
Describing himself as a Navy contractor, Alexis told police he believed an individual he'd gotten into a verbal spat with had sent three "people to follow him and keep him awake by talking to him and sending vibrations into his body," according to a police report. Alexis said he hadn't seen any of these people, but insisted they'd followed him between three hotels in the area -- the last being a Marriott, where police investigating a harassment complaint encountered him. 
There, Alexis told authorities the unseen individuals continued speaking to him through walls and the floor, and that they used "some sort of microwave machine" to send vibrations into his body to keep him awake.


Monday, July 22, 2013

Earning a Passive Income Through PTC (Paid To Click) Sites




Click on CLIXSENSE  above for more on PTC sites

Paid to click sites will not make me rich but they do generate enough petty cash to pay my phone bill every month Paid To click is an online business model that draws online traffic from people aiming to earn money from home. Paid-To-Click, or simply PTC websites, act as middlemen between advertisers and consumers; the advertiser pays for displaying ads on the PTC website, and a part of this payment goes to the viewer when he views the advertisement.
In addition, most PTC sites offer a commission to its members for signing up new members (similar to many affiliate marketing programs online), or they may pay members a percentage of the clicks that their referrals make as an ongoing commission.
The viability of the PTC business model has been questioned, as fraudulent clicks have ramped up the expenses for advertisers. With lawsuits filed against the internet search companies, the burden has been placed on GoogleYahoo and others to determine valid clicks from fraudulent ones.
Even with this little  controversy I have been promptly paid when I cash out.








Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Ramadan; Ninth Month of the Islamic Calendar, Muslims Observe This as Month of Fasting

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Because the cycle of the lunar calendar does not match the solar calendar, the dates of Ramadan shifts by approximately 11 days each year. In 2011, Ramadan began on August 1st. In 2012 Ramadan began on July 20th. In 2013, Ramadan is expected to begin on the evening of July 8th with the first full day of fasting on July 9th.
The ending of Ramadan is marked by the holiday of Eid ul-Fitr, which takes place either 29 or 30 days after the beginning of the month. On Eid ul-Fitr, morning prayers are followed by feasting and celebration among family and friends. This year Eid ul-Fitr will most probably fall on Wednesday, August 7.
What is the history of Ramadan?
Ramadan is the 9th month of the Islamic calendar. The term Ramadan literally means scorching in Arabic. It was established as a Holy Month for Muslims after the Quran was revealed to the Prophet Muhammad in 610 CE on the occasion known as Laylat al-Qadr, frequently translated as "the Night of Power.
Observance of Ramadan is mandated in the Quran, Surah 2, Ayah 185
“The month of Ramadhan [is that] in which was revealed the Qur'an, guidance for the people and clear proofs of guidance and criterion. So whoever sights [the new moon of] the month, let him fast it; and whoever is ill or on a journey - then an equal number of other days. Allah intends for you ease and does not intend for you hardship and [wants] for you to complete the period and to glorify Allah for that [to] which He has guided you; and perhaps you will be grateful.”

Monday, July 8, 2013

The Cyclic Seventeen Year Cicada Invasion: Well? It's Time, Where Are They?

The hype was here, but the song wasn't.
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For Instance, South Jersey residents spent the months of May and June anxiously waiting to hear the tell-tale buzzing of a breed of cicadas that were supposed to re-emerge after 17 years underground.
Cicadas are large black insects with red eyes and they were expected to swarm from the ground across the East Coast this year, but as they began to appear in some areas, this region remained without the loud, buzzing sound that is evidence of their arrival.

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Debunking Another Facebook Hoax! Jackie Chan is Alive and Well!

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Jackie Chan proves Internet death hoax is a bunch of hooey
Of all the social media fueled celebrity death rumors in recent years, Jackie Chan's alleged death probably ranks in the most believable category; after all, the guy holds a Guinness Book of World Records title for the most stunts of any living actor. Still, we are pleased to report
that rumors earlier this month claiming Chan had moved on to the great "Fists of Fury" in the sky are false


Sunday, June 23, 2013

Tight Rope Walk Across Arizona Canyon: Wallenda Does It Again!

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Famed daredevil and tightrope walker Nik Wallenda successfully crossed the Little Colorado River Gorge in Arizona tonight, without using either a tether or a safety harness.
Wallenda walked along a quarter-mile stretch of two-inch steel cable, 1,500 feet in the air.
"I've had a dream to be the first person in the world to walk a tight rope directly above the Grand Canyon," Wallenda said in a video statement on his website, where he announced his intended feat.
But despite his claim that he would be crossing the Grand Canyon, Wallenda, 34, of Sarasota, Fla., actually walked over a gorge near the canyon.

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Surveillance Drones Over U.S. Soil: Big Brother is Still Watching You

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The United States uses drones for surveillance in some limited law enforcement situations, FBI Director Robert Mueller said on Wednesday, sparking additional debate about President Barack Obama's use of domestic surveillance.
The acknowledgement came in response to questions from U.S. senators who said they wanted to know more about the federal government's increasing use of unmanned aircraft.
"Does the FBI use drones for surveillance on U.S. soil?" Republican Senator Charles Grassley of Iowa asked during a Senate Judiciary Committee hearing.
"Yes," Mueller said, adding that the use was in "a very, very minimal way and very seldom."

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Women In Space: Female Astronauts Gain Equality

Russian cosmonaut Valentina Tereshkova, the first woman to fly in space
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On Monday, NASA announced that eight new astronauts would be joining the U.S. space program. Of the eight new recruits, four are women—marking the first time NASA has selected an equal number of men and women for an incoming astronaut class. (See National Geographic's space-exploration time line.)
Headlines around the world have touted the gender parity.
It's "one giant leap for womankind," the Houston Business Journal proclaimed.
"Now that's what I'm talking about," tweeted a senior adviser to the President.
"One small step for woman," said the Daily Mail.


Wednesday, June 12, 2013

NASCAR: Jason Leffler Dies After Sprint Car Accident

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NASCAR driver Jason Leffler died after he crashed during a sprint car race Wednesday night at Bridgeport Speedway in New Jersey.

Leffler, a 37-year-old native of Long Beach, was pronounced dead at about 6 p.m. PDT, the New Jersey State Police reported. His sprint car, a small open-wheel vehicle raced on dirt tracks, was heavily damaged, and he had to be extricated from the wreck.
Bridgeport Speedway, located near Camden, N.J., is a five-eights-mile, high-banked dirt oval. The speedway postponed the rest of the racing schedule for Wednesday night.
Leffler, who twice won on NASCAR's second-tier Nationwide Series, made his first Sprint Cup start of the year on Sunday at Pocono Raceway, finishing last in the Race for the Poconos 400.
He made 73 starts in the Sprint Cup Series, beginning with the 2001 Daytona 500, and 294 starts in the Nationwide Series, beginning with the 1999 Kroger 200.
Leffler was a three-time national champion for USAC midgets and was the 1998 USAC Silver Crown national champion. He was inducted into the National Midget Racing Hall of Fame in 2003

Near Earth Flyby: Huge Asteroid has a Moon!

Click image for more on asteroid 1988 QE2 and its moon at Science.com

A newly released video of a giant asteroid's Earth flyby last week reveals key details about the enigmatic space rock  and its attendant moon.
The enormous asteroid 1998 QE2sailed past our planet at a distance of 3.6 million miles (5.8 million kilometers) on May 31, making its closest approach for at least the next two centuries.

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Food the Condemned Chose as Their Last Meal before Execution

From the web pages of 'Criminal Library' is an interesting slideshow of what condemned inmates picked for their last meal. Some choices are very unusual and surprising!



 Stanley Allison Baker Jr.: Two 16-ounce ribeyes, one pound turkey breast (sliced thin), twelve strips of bacon, two large hamburgers with mayo, onion and lettuce, two large baked potatoes with butter, sour cream, cheese and chives, four slices of cheese or one-half pound of grated cheddar cheese, chef salad with blue cheese dressing, two ears of corn on the cob, one pint of mint chocolate chip ice cream and four vanilla Cokes or Mr. Pibb


Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Blacks Arrested for Marijuana Far More Often Than Whites

 Black people are arrested for possessing marijuana far more often than white people, even though marijuana use by both races is about the same, the American Civil Liberties Union reports in a new study.
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The ACLU's analysis of federal crime data, released Tuesday, found marijuana arrest rates for black people were 3.73 times greater than those for white people nationally in 2010. In some counties, the arrest rate was 10 to 30 times greater for blacks. In two Alabama counties, 100 percent of those arrested for marijuana possession were black, the ACLU said

Monday, June 3, 2013

Father, Son Storm Chasers Killed by Tornado That Took 13 Lives in Oklahoma city

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Three veteran storm chasers died doing what they loved: roaming the Great Plains in search of dangerous storms like the one inOklahoma that ended their final pursuit.
Tim Samaras, his son Paul and colleague Carl Young died Friday night when an EF3 tornado with winds up to 165 mph turned on them near El Reno, Okla. After years of sharing dramatic videos with television viewers and weather researchers, they died chasing a storm that killed 13 in Oklahoma City and its suburbs.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Space Rodeo! NASA to Lasso Asteroid and Drag it to Earth Orbit.

PASADENA, Calif. (AP) — Surrounded by engineers, NASA chief Charles Bolden inspected a prototype spacecraft engine that could power an audacious mission to lasso an asteroid and tow it closer to Earth for astronauts to explore.
Bolden checked on the progress Thursday a month after the Obama administration unveiled its 2014 budget that proposes $105 million to jump start the mission, which may eventually cost more than $2.6 billion.

Engineers at the Jet Propulsion Laboratory in Southern California and Glenn Research Center in Ohio are developing a thruster that relies on ion propulsion instead of conventional chemical fuel.
Once relegated to science fiction, ion propulsion — which fires beams of electrically charged atoms to propel a spacecraft — is preferred for deep space cruising because it's more fuel-efficient. Engine testing is expected to ramp up next year.
During his visit to the JPL campus, nestled in the foothills of the San Gabriel Mountains northeast of Los Angeles, Bolden viewed an engineering model of the engine and peered through a porthole of a vacuum chamber housing the prototype.
NASA is under White House orders to fly humans to an asteroid as a stepping stone to Mars. Instead of sending astronauts to the asteroid belt between Mars and Jupiter, as originally planned, the space agency came up with a quicker, cheaper idea: Haul the asteroid close to the moon and visit it there.
Bolden said the original concept was impractical given the flat budget and praised the alternative as "ingenious."
"If you can't get to the asteroid, bring the asteroid to you," Bolden said.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Cancer: Teen Who Wrote Internet Viral Goodbye Hit 'Clouds' Dies


LAKELAND, Minn. (AP) — When high school student Zach Sobiech learned he didn't have much longer to live, his mother suggested he write letters to tell his loved ones goodbye. Instead, the Minnesota teenager turned to writing music — and his farewell song, "Clouds," became a YouTube sensation that has attracted more than 4 million views.

Other musicians have covered the tune, and it inspired a celebrity video on YouTube. "Clouds" was even listed No. 1 on the iTunes Top 10 list on Wednesday — two days after Sobiech died after battling bone cancer.
His mother, Laura Sobiech, said on the CaringBridge website that her son was surrounded by family and his girlfriend when he died at his home in Lakeland, an eastern suburb of St. Paul. He had recently turned 18.
Sobiech was being remembered not only for his music, but also for the way he lived. John Hallberg, the chief executive of the Children's Cancer Research Fund, said Wednesday that Sobiech had a positive attitude and approached his diagnosis with strength and grace.
"You don't have to find out you're dying to start living," Sobiech said in a short video about him titled, "My Last Days: Meet Zach Sobiech," which also has been viewed more than 4 million times since it was posted to YouTube two weeks ago.

Monday, May 13, 2013

Hack Proof Internet: Hackers' Days are Numbered Because of Quantum Physics!

A Hack-Proof Internet Exists, Thanks to Quantum Physics


Leave it to the quantum physicists at Los Alamos National Labs to have run for the past two years something that sounded like science fiction: a quantum Internet that promises perfectly secure online communications.
While hackers have gotten much better in the past decade at intercepting alphanumeric keys used to transmit most electronic message or unlocking passwords with brute-force attacks, the Los Alamos system uses cryptography based on the intrinsic randomness of quantum physics. Its digital keys, generated by a truly random set of numbers, theoretically leave hackers with no way to figure out the key’s internal coding.
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A second layer of security lies in the passage of the key to its recipient. The key is effectively transported by photons of light along a dedicated fiber optic line. Per Heisenberg’s famous uncertainty principle, hack attempts would have clear effects on those particles. As MIT Technology Review puts it, “any attempt to eavesdrop on a quantum message cannot fail to leave telltale signs of snooping that the receiver can detect.”
So while the rest of us are still prey to the spying eyes of the Chinese army, larcenous Eastern European fraudsters, or the FBI, a select research team in New Mexico can engage in snoop-proof online communication—a massive breakthrough for the security of our personal data, as well as for nationwide endeavors such as online banking and voting.

Thursday, April 18, 2013

WWII: The History Making 'Doolittle Raiders' Down to Four Remaining Members, to Hold Last Reunion

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Cole, Thatcher and Saylor — three of the four surviving crew members from the history-making bombing run — are at Eglin for a final public reunion of the Doolittle Raiders. They decided to meet at Eglin because it is where they trained for their top-secret mission in the winter of 1942, just weeks after the Japanese devastated the American fleet at Pearl Harbor.
The fourth surviving raider, 93-year-old Robert Hite, could not make the event.


Doolittle Raider Lt. Col. Dick Cole stands April 16 in front of a B-25 at the Destin Airport in Destin, Fla., before a flight as part of the Doolittle Raider 71st Anniversary Reunion. Cole was Lt. Col. Jimmy Doolittle's co-pilot during the Doolittle Tokyo Raid, a notable attack on the Japanese during World War II using B-25s. The B-25 pilots trained to take off from an aircraft carrier, which the plane was not designed to do. Nick Tomecek / Northwest Florida Daily News via AP


Friday, April 12, 2013

From the Poetry Page: Hither and Yon

Hither and yon

Just like a Yo-Yo,
Its up and down we go.
It really needs to cease.
Just like playing Ping Pong,
Its back and forth for too long!
We need some relief!
"Oh, no!" here again we go!
Playing 'To and Fro.'
Not again! "Good grief!"
Over and over goes She,
Damn it! Pick him or me!
This tension needs release!
Doing it one more time,
With no reason or rhyme,
It smacks of one big tease!
This complicated indecision,
Either pick my life or his and
Give on of us some peace.

Monday, April 8, 2013

Big Brother Is Still Diligently Watching You! Maybe....

Is this a mosquito,a bot or spy drone, a toy, a hoax or what?
We need to all be aware of it anyway so
this information!
 If you happen to see something like this then give this weird little mechanical insect the swat of certain death!
(Hit it again!)
If it's an insect spy drone for urban areas, already in production, funded by the US Government. It can be remotely controlled and is equipped with a camera and a microphone. It can land on you, and it may have the potential to take a DNA sample or leave RFID tracking nanotechnology on your skin. It can fly through an open window, or it can attach to your clothing until you take it in your home!
Or.
It could just be someones idea of a cool little replica of what a real robot mosquito could look like.

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Sheriff Walter E.(Eugene) Crum - The Death of A Hero

Mingo County Sheriff's Office, West Virginia
Sheriff Walter E. "Eugene" Crum - 30+ years dedicated to the People
End Of Watch: 04-03-13

Sheriff Eugene Crum, 59, was gunned down in broad daylight at point blank range in a deliberate assassination (details below). Born with a soul that has courage to wear the badge, Sheriff Crum had been Saving, Serving and Protecting the People for more than 30 years. Brother Eugene began his calling when he was sworn in with the Matewan Police Department, WV. and then the Delbarton Police Department. There, this True Blue Warrior devoted himself with dedication and with courage to make a difference in his small corner of the world ... and he did so with an unshakable commitment. Fellow Officers really liked working along side of this Brother. He was always upbeat and positive and made even the bad days seem not so bad. Anytime they were involved in an investigation and they did not 'get their man' right there, he kept everyone motivated with the attitude of 'no worries, we will get him tomorrow'. Brother Eugene never gave up on anything. Co-workers also loved his motivation to keep fit, both physically and mentally. He was big on training whenever he got the chance and encouraged his peers to do so as well. This Warrior knew they had to be ready for anything and everything at any time. Eugene was also very proactive in his community, going out of his way to ensure People knew how to keep themselves safe. His approachable, compassionate demeanor allowed the citizens to respect and trust this Officer, which in turn led to their assistance when called upon for information. He treated all with fairness and did his work with bravery and with benevolence.

Working his way up the ranks in the 18 years he was with DPD, Brother Eugene's innovative thinking and hands-on work made him the perfect choice for Chief Of Police, a rank he achieved. This was no sit-behind-a desk leader. He was down in the trenches working alongside his men at every chance he got. Chief Crum looked out for them and shared his experiences so they could learn from and hone their skills to become the best Law Enforcement Officer they could be. 12 years ago, Chief Crum left the Delbarton PD to become a Magistrate for the Mango County Judiciary Office. Brother Eugen held a great passion for helping folks stay off of drugs and this became his main focus. This Warrior was responsible for implementing Operation Zero Tolerance, a task force comprised of multiple agencies to crack down on the drug trade. In January of this year, the People of Mingo County wanted, and received, Eugene Crum as their new Sheriff. His dedication to making the County a safer and brighter place to live was welcomed by the citizens and they were grateful for him. Greeting each morning with a smile and enthusiasm that lasted throughout the day, Sheriff Crum was a joy to encounter, often leaving you laughing with his amazing sense of humor. He made the People feel important and that they mattered to him .. because they truly did.

Even when not in uniform, Sheriff Crum often spent time driving around the county to keep up on what was happening where. But it was his time spent with his wife and children that gave him the greatest joy. Oh how he ate up being a grandpa too! This Son, Husband, Father, and Brother of Blue will be remembered for Living As Only A Hero Could. May we continue his legacy but ensuring we pick up where he left off and his fight to keep the People safe from drugs, as we continue to create our own legacies. A Hero who will be missed by so very many ... so few will forget the day he was taken from us all too soon ...

Just after noon today, Sheriff Crum was sitting in his SUV about a block away from the Courthouse. The Sheriff often ate his lunch in this manner to make the most of all time spent in uniform. On this day, he parked near a building that was a known previous pill mill to watch for any activity. A vehicle pulled up, the driver exited and walked up to the Sheriff's car . As Sheriff Crum rolled-down his window to assist, he was shot four times at point blank range to the head and upper body. Witnesses called immediately for help as the shooter fled. A Police pursuit ensued and when the suspect's vehicle became disabled, the driver exited and opened fire on the Officers. The Police shot the suspect, who is now in custody being treated. Sadly, this was to be our Brother's final battle ... Sheriff Walter Eugene Crum succumbed to his wounds and was pronounced.

Eugene leaves behind his beloved bride, children and grandchildren. Our heartfelt thoughts and prayers go out to the entire Crum family, the Men and Women of the Mingo County SO, the Mingo Magistrate's Office, the Delbarton PD, the Matewan PD, the West Virginia State Police, and to all whom have had the pleasure and the privilege of knowing and working along side this True Blue Hero.

Our Brother, as you now look down from the Heavens, may you continue your vigilant watch over us all as we carry on in the battles to come ... In Our Brother's Honor. We thank you for your service and for your sacrifice. We thank you for your life. Job Well Done Sir.

Rest In Peace Sheriff Walter E. "Eugene" Crum ... We Have The Watch From Here. SALUTE!

~written by Nessie for TrueBlueWarriors.org~www.facebook.com/truebluewarriors
copyright2013 TrueBlueWarriors/Nessie
MCSO: http://www.mingocountywv.com/
MPD: http://www.matewan.com/goverment/police%20dept.htm
DPD: http://www.delbartonwv.us/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=51&Itemid=65
MCJO: http://www.courtswv.gov/lower-courts/counties/mingo.html

Suspected Cop Killer, Tennis Melvin Maynard, 37, in custody - charges pending. This is an ongoing investigation and we will update.

Monday, April 1, 2013

What Is the Largest Man Made Object in Space?

"The ISS is the largest man made object in space. Here's how it compares to other notable objects, both real and fictional, all drawn to scale."

The ISS isn't just the largest space craft ever built, it's also the world's most expensive object. According the Government Accountability Office, it cost upwards of 100 billion dollars to complete.




Thursday, March 28, 2013

The man Who Saved the World During Cuban Missile Crisis

The man who saved the world... 
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50 years ago, at the height of the Cuban Missile Crisis, second-in-command Vasilli Arkhipov of the Soviet submarine B-59 refused to agree with his Captain's order to launch nuclear torpedos against US warships and setting off what might well have been a terminal superpower nuclear war. 

The US had been dropping depth charges near the submarine in an attempt to force it to surface, unaware it was carrying nuclear arms. The Soviet officers, who had lost radio contact with Moscow, concluded that World War 3 had begun, and 2 of the officers agreed to 'blast the warships out of the water'. Arkhipov refused to agree - unanimous consent of 3 officers was required - and thanks to him, the world was saved from being scarred badly.

His story is finally being told - the BBC is airing a documentary on it.

Raise a glass to Vasilli Arkhipov.

Friday, February 15, 2013

Asteroids: The Closest of Close Calls!


YEKATERINBURG/CHELYABINSK, Russia (Reuters) - About 400 people were injured when a meteorite shot across the sky in central Russia on Friday sending fireballs crashing to Earth, smashing windows and setting off car alarms.
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Residents on their way to work in Chelyabinsk heard what sounded like an explosion, saw a bright light and then felt a shock wave, according to a Reuters correspondent in the industrial city 1,500 km (950 miles) east of Moscow.
The meteorite raced across the horizon, leaving a long white trail in its wake which could be seen as far as 200 km (125 miles) away in Yekaterinburg. Car alarms went off, windows shattered and mobile phones worked only intermittently.
Chelyabinsk city authorities said about 400 people sought medical help, mainly for light injuries caused by flying glass.

From the Poetry Page: eleven never before published poems



As a writer I may not be the best, but I am versatile.  On this blog you can find three totally different types of books I've written and no two of them are anything alike. There is a short story compilation, a sci-fi novel and a non-fiction compilation of short stories and observations by the author. 

 The one thing I love to write is poetry. 

This is a very hard genre to publish so I usually feature my poetry in my 'odds and ends' articles. I have written dozens of poems over the years and find it a better way of recognizing good or bad emotion and finding a way to mentally process it.



Cindy's Web
My Sweet, my Inspiration,
My mind reels with anticipation.
My Heart wants to leap ahead.
With thoughts of perfect interaction,
And unending satisfaction,
My Heart cries love to my head.
My loin roars like the lion,
My libido rises as a mountain,
I dream of you in my bed.
My magnet, my draw,
My wants and awe,
My Heart leaps ahead.


In the Nick of Time


I was barely alive, but mostly dead.
Either at work or laying in my bed.
Thoughts of regret insistent in my head.
Trying to be happy is a hard trek to tread.
Smile on the outside hiding the dread.
Is the best behind me?
Have I been all I can be?
Failing to prosper haunting me.
No gods to listen, me they don't see.
Thinking of the noose hanging from the tree.
Pondering silently or screaming out loud.
Never admit it, thinking I'm too proud.
Always there screaming or whispering mild.
Cover my face with the blanket, pretend it's a shroud.
Thank heavens I don't own a gun.
No way to change things, nowhere to run.
Not making a joke here, not casting a pun.
Sucking the barrel would be way too fun.
Wearing shame as a coat, expecting the shun.
Then the phone began to ring!
Because she needs me my heart began to sing.
Could this change everything?
A new life it could bring.
Oh, thank heavens I avoided the sling!
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    In My Shoes

Our life is on the edge of  being changed,
revamped, rebuilt, and rearranged.
Only for the good this can happen,
her life and mine overlappin'!
Turned to me and said,"I'm alone;as are you,
pleasing all else,for this we go through?"
"It matters not what they may think.
our happiness, fulfillment is on th' brink."
I agreed and for this I chance the change
is it responsible our love estranged?
I say, "No! It is my life to choose,
you'd do the same,walking in my shoes!"
Who could it hurt,who could it destroy?
Been there;done that. I'm not a boy.
I've turned into my lover a dear friend,
I once again feel alive! May it never end!I

Sweet Determination

I lay in the bed holding your pillow and think of our nights.
I see light at the end of our tunnels and it is white,bright!
So, there is hope, and your Hope agrees!
Making our choices easy as a summer breeze.
I know my poetry may not be your thing,
But my soul and heart just has to sing!
To express happiness again is so unexpected.
 I don't care if it is discovered or even suspected.
 I will only live once upon this Earth.
 The chance to again love gives me a rebirth!
 Come with me, here is my heart;take my hand,
We'll make them all envious when they understand.
In the end labels and barriers are all for the fool.
They will wish they were us and won't that be cool!


Her
Her blue eyes were the pools in which my love reflected
Her soft clean blond hair was of an angel, I suspected.

Her face so beautiful and serene,
Her skin so soft and clean.

Her nape a tender sweet confection,
Her delicate lobes a concavement of perfection.

Her smooth, red lips craving interaction,
Her breasts mounds of firm, soft attraction.

Her perfect tummy punctuated with a tiny button,
Her rising mound a succulent bauble for the glutton.

Her natural blond was a hidden secret,
Her long thin legs I'll never forget.

Her tiny kissable feet,
Her hands soft and discreet.

Her love is more than I can stand,
Her every wish is my command!



Living Life

You see, when it came I came alive!
Again my life was filled with emotion.
The adventure gave rise to thrive
Toward that giddy heartbeat of commotion.

To feel the hope of a new love at my age,
Drove me to a persistent preoccupation.
In my life I was turning a positive page,
Giving me another chance to feel elation!

Experiencing the new emotions was great,
To have love stuff to share anew everyday.
Awakening excited to love prospects and anticipate,
That soft sweetness of desire she gave my way.

Settling together caused other emotions, a new feeling,
A couple must learn to live with the other and let live.
This type of emotion of hurt and healing,
Is knowing when to take and when to give.

Yet, all things must come to an end as did this,
Now my emotions are of the wearily estranged.
Even with my heart strained and my logic amiss,
I am alive!    Not a second  would I have changed!
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All Used Up
Through those months my emotions were all screwy,
I felt alive and my heart beat! I knew what we needed to do. We
Needed to get  together fast and give it a real shot.
We were both alone concerning matters of the heart.
The Idea had real value and vigar, so why not?
We both thought it would turn out successful from the start.

We both planned to try to learn to love again, see?
We planned a positive note to be as happy as can be!
We came together found that we could probibly love,
But complications of life got in the way...
Our values were conflicted, vim went to push comes to shove,
 Misconceptions of each other became tears at the end of the day.

After awhile, with a sigh she opted to return to her old life,
The knowledge that she's gone can still pierces me like a knife!
In our empty apartment I rattle around like a pea in a can.
I feel like it came all too soon and went away just as fast,
I wanted it to work, but I took the loss like a man.
Still, she wasn't my first love, but she'll surely be my last.




The Reality of a Fantasy

We were wrapped up in the dreams and the fantasy,
Sometimes I felt so impatient I could bounce off the walls!
We had embarked on a new adventure; 'New Love' it seemed to me.
All my loneliness was averted by her anticipated calls!

We talked our talk of plans, schemes and dreams,
Hours and hours passed and still we talked on.
We'd talk all that love talk to extremes,it seems,
It was a happy, fulfilling path we both walked on.

Then finally came the day we'd be together forever,
The heady adrenalin coarse through every vein!
I'll have her bodily in my arms, the sooner the better!
We the attempted to create love with a gallant campaign.

Then the reality set in; new love was hard for two old friends.
Yet we both wanted it to work.
Still the differences and unpleasantness contends,
The doubt of success began to lurk.

It began with a bang and ended with a whimper.
The cold facts knocked us both for a loop.
It was turning out bad for me and her.
The time came to step back and regroup.

Now my friend is gone, still not ever really my lover,
And my old heart feels so damn cheated!
I think I prefer the fantasy over the other;
Dreaming a dream that is never completed.


 Heart Lingers

I knew she was slipping through my fingers,
And I knew I had to let her go.
Still that love emotion lingers,
But I won't let my true feelings show.

Oh,how I wanted things to go right,
But, with a sigh I relinquished my dream.
Lingering feelings fill up the night,
And failure seems to be the theme.

The feelings linger week after week,
I wonder when the pain will end.
I achingly wait for the sadness to peak,
Missing my lover and my friend.

When talking as friends we ponder the collapse,
Was it the timing or the conditions ?
The split-up lingers in our minds perhaps
leaving fear of failure unmentioned.

Should We try to repair this as a mistake?
My mind lingers on the thought.
What emotional repairs could I make?
Who's right,who's wrong, who should claim the fault?

I should just move on and so should she,
We both would be doing the right thing.
Still, ideas linger in my heart(where she toughed me),
Of what if anything the future might bring.


    To Kiss You

I guess I'll never be able to dismiss you,
Or the good and bad we've been through.
I know how it feels now to miss you,
I'll never forget how it felt to kiss you.

Would I ever do it again?
I'd do it all over again, my friend.
For all of it, my heart may never mend,
But, I would love just to kiss you again.

Because of it all I felt so alive.
My worn emotions began again to thrive!
In the end my ego took a hard dive.
Yet, on your kiss alone I could survive.

For through it all my old heart grew,
My hard-headedness  began to unscrew.
Even though it was releasing to be shed of you,
I'll never forget what I felt when I kissed you.

In my dreams I hear your voice say,"Hay."
In my mind your touch will always stay.
I granted you luck when you went away,
Still, for your kiss I wish for one more day.

In my lonely bed at night the cold air nips.
My new emotions damaged, broken and rips.
My mind runs over again our life's movie clips.
And I sigh as I envision just kissing your lips.



Severed Connections

Now my cell phone is an empty thing,
I remember the love it used to bring,
Now it seems to never ring.

I look at the phone as it lays there dead,
And memories of those long hours rush through my head,
But the still cell phone has conveyed all that needs said.

It was my connection to her; that old flip phone,
Even knowing better I listen for her ring tone,
But it lays there indifferent and still as a stone.

Silent, for her interests had eventually changed,
Now our lives are different and totally rearranged,
Those needy exchanges now broken and estranged.

The lonely hours craw with the silence and that's bad,
Missing the long hours we shared on the cell and that's sad,
Now from my mind I push the dead dreams that I had.

Just glancing at the cellie brings memories astir,
I expect no more happiness from it to occur,
Wait! A text is coming in, maybe it's her!

But it's a friend asking if I'm working today,
Its another small let down I must keep at bay,
How I wish this lost hope would just go away!

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