Vibrational Contradictions

Am I, by claiming the mantle of agnosticism, blocking the obvious? Is proof of a divine entity all around me, yet I deny it out of habit?



A friend, Audrey, posted some very strong statements on facebook that made me reconsider my hard headedness where my agnosticism is concerned.

Here is one of the phrases:

'If your spirit gently suggest you go right and out of habit you go left there is no error. If you go left often enough you will get to the same place - it might just take a bit longer and you might fall into a few pot holes along the way.'

Have I been placing my own desire to be right above what is obvious to everyone else? Can I accept being wrong and embrace God? 

Here is another of Audrey's posts:

'Listen for your inner voice, experiment and play with it. Eventually you will notice that following its guidance is much more pleasurable than not.
No one can deny you anything. Only you deny it through your vibrational contradiction.
--- Abraham'

Have I missed the truth because of my own vibrational contradictions?

Or in other words; Am I not seeing the forest for all those trees in the way?

I think I need to stop analyzing every little thing and try to feel it with my heart.

This is a scary concept for an old pagan like me. Still, something is just not right about my decision to deny the existence of a Divine Creator.

The big mind blower for me is the fact that I keep having to prove to myself that my denial is correct.

It seems I have no faith in my own stance on the subject.

Is the truth about faith as simple as that? Do I need to just quit trying to make a godhead fit into my definition of what is logical and just go with the flow?

I feel like the boy with his finger in the dike or like a juggler trying to keep too many balls in the air. Where is the righteousness in that? Where is the pleasure that Abraham spoke about?

Some of my favorite scientists had an opinion about a divine creator, here are a few:

Einstein said he wanted to know God through equations.He was searching for God!

Edwin Hubble said that the big bang was where God touched the abyss and it became everything! He did not leave God out of the explanation!

Galileo said that God started the clockwork of the universe. This is not a denial of God, it is an accreditation to a Divine Creator.

What's going on here? Do I think I'm more right than these guys? They were renowned geniuses!

Now, here is the real clincher for me:

In the bible, Romans chapter 14, says that God expected this from some people and he would be there on the other side of their doubt. God said that none of us lives with regards to himself only; that no man dies with regard to himself only.

If we live we live to God, if we die we die to God.

Happy is the man that does not put himself on judgement by what he himself approves.

Ok, so the fact that believers are happy in thier faith, and are satisfied in life is proof that it is the right way to look at life, love ,God, and the afterlife. Does the battle to constantly prove logically that there isn't a God simply proves his existance?

The faithful need not prove his existance to me, but can easily counter any proof I have to the contrary.

Agnosticism is a battle that the believer feels they have already won and pities we that continue to engage.

By the very act of denying a God have I proved his existance?

HOW CAN YOU DENY SOMETHING THAT WAS NEVER THERE? 

Agnosticism would be a mute arguement if there never was a god to consider in the first place.

HOW CAN YOU NOT RECOGNISE SOMETHING THAT WAS ALWAYS THERE?

I think I will remain still, quiet, and listen to the universe around me.

I am open to change.

"Natura non facit saltis" - Frank Herbert 1969
'Nature makes no leaps'
"something cannot come from nothing without devine intervention"